In my apartment we held thanksgiving dinner yesterday; we had 10 adults in total, my son, and our great niece who is only a few months old. It actually turned out perfect. I was worried it would be too crowded, but it was just right. We were expecting a couple more, but as mentioned earlier Robert's nephew is in the hospital, so we were minus 2 adults and 2 kids. As sad as it is, I am glad they didn't come; it would have been too many people. Also, their children are not disciplined at all, so I would have really lost my mind if they were here.
What's crazy and great at the same time is I was worried that the days leading up to this event were going to cause me some anxiety problems. Social gatherings in the past have made me freak out and given me the desire to drink; which of course I usually acted upon. This time however I did not. I even tried working with my psychiatric nurse practitioner to get anti-anxiety meds just for this situation. This failed miserably; first off the one she prescribed was not covered under my insurance. The pharmacy sent a request back for another medicine covered under my insurance, but they could not approve it until my doctor was in. She is only in the office on saturdays; really? What doctor only works on saturdays? What if I had an anxiety attack on wednesday? So finally on saturday they had her sign a prior authorization to send to my insurance for the medicine she prescribed; I still haven't' heard anything from them. Good thing I didn't need it.
Blogging has really helped me deal with my emotions so much; I should have done this years ago.
It is generally believed that many of those with bipolar disorder also struggle with alcoholism or substance abuse. Researchers, as well as many of those caught in the cycle of addiction, believe the use of these substances is an attempt to alleviate symptoms or to "self-medicate."
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