I am about to approach my 90 day probationary period for my new job. This is the first job I've had since I became pregnant with my son almost 3 years ago. At my hire date I felt confident that my skills would be up to par by this time, but right now I feel that expectation hasn't been met.
As far as improvement with knowing the computer program and what the doctor wants (I'm a vet technician) there has been some. But when it comes to my technical skills I feel like I haven't progressed like I wanted. Maybe I'm being too hard on myself, but the doctor I work with doesn't let me do very much when the other technicians are around. She just wants the job done quickly. How am I supposed to get efficient at anything if I don't get the experience!?!?!?!
Today I just wanted to take off on my lunch break and not come back. There is this camaraderie between the doctor and employees because she's worked with them so long. There is a point I hope will come where I feel a part of it, but I thought I would be there by now. I am only part time so maybe it will take a bit longer to establish it. All I know is I have to try not to be too hard on myself like I've done in the past. Lighten up and remember it's just a job.
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Yes, I know that feeling so well, the first months when you start a job, not feeling like you fit in with the crowd! It will get much better, I promise. : ) After you've been there awhile, you'll look back and think "I felt that way?", but I do remember it takes time! And you're a vet tech? Very cool! I so love animals!!!!!!
ReplyDeleteThanks. I just need to chillax. I always work myself up over nothing!
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