Friday, March 23, 2012


It's been two weeks now since I started my new job.  I only work 3 days a week, but I tell you that is enough for now.

My son is having to adjust to daycare, which he is having some trouble with.  Every morning he has said he doesn't want to go and I have to convince him he'll have fun.  Last friday was the worst though; he threw a full blown fit, kicking and screaming bloody murder and I had to carry him to the car.  It was rough.  I tried asking him if it was someone or something that he didn't like at daycare, but he said no he just didn't want to go.  I think he just needs to adjust.

Just like me going back to work; it's been crazy trying to get back into the flow of things.  I am feeling improvement and I hope they are noticing.  When I was hired we made an agreement of a starting pay rate and after 3 months that would go up; I think in 3 months I will deserve that raise!

Friday, March 9, 2012

Back to the working world

Today, amazingly, I was offered two jobs.  I've been job searching for a couple weeks, had 3 interviews, two of which asked me back for working interviews.  I was lucky enough to be able to choose the one I wanted.

The one I chose was not just because it was offering more money, although that was part of the decision, it was mainly because they send their employees to continuing education seminars and lectures.  Another bonus is they asked me what days I want to work, since I'm going back part time; the other job said they were going to only hire me for fridays and saturdays, I do not want to work every saturday!

I called the daycare my husband and I chose and made arrangements for our son to start next monday.  It is amazing all the changes going on in our lives.  I'm excited and nervous along with so many other emotions.

I wanted to go back just part time so I can adjust going back to work and still spend time with my son while he's young.  Being bipolar there is always a chance any stress that occurs might cause a chemical reaction altering my state of mind.  I also have to be mindful of maintaining my sobriety.  In the past I have used alcohol to deal with stressful situations; I don't want to fall back into that pattern.  At least I have outlets now to express my feelings through this blog and also through the meetings I attend.

Being aware of my diseases and keeping the recovery from them as a priority really helps keep me from slipping into a downward spiral.

Friday, March 2, 2012

Change, do I really want it?

Currently, I am a stay at home mom with a 2 1/2 year old son.  My husband works and brings in a decent income and I recieve disability income while I'm not working due to being bipolar.  The stress of going back to work might derail my stability, which is why social security allows a trial work period.

I am about to use that trial work period, but I need to obtain a job first.  I've had one interview and will have another tommorrow.  I've also submitted my resume to a few other places.  I was so overwhelmed at that first interview; I hope only because I haven't interviewed in almost 4 years and that my future interviews will go better.

Along with having to find a job, we're having to find an affordable daycare for my son.  Since I recieve a monthly income through disability, whatever job I get must make up for that and also cover daycare to make it worth going back to work.  This alone makes me request a minimum salary from any job offer; which does not go over well with some employers.

So far the two daycares we've looked at have not impressed me.  I'm probably expecting too much because I want it to be perfect for him and there's no such thing.  A lot of daycares require him to be fully potty trained and he's not quite there yet.

All of this change is hard for me, but I want it.  I think a part time adjustment period is necessary for both me and my son before we both go full time in a couple years.  It's just so much easier to stay in the comfort zone of what is known, but that would not be good in the long run.