Saturday, November 19, 2011

AA topic = Acceptance

I went to a meeting tonight and the discussion was on acceptance.  It is very hard for me to accept things that happen that I cannot change.  I am agnostic so I do not pray like others do to make themselves feel like they have done something; that's one of the things that irks me the most about religious people.

Anyways,  I shared tonight at the meeting about how we had just visited my husbands nephew, who is only 8 years old, at the children's hospital.  The poor kid has been in and out of hospitals his whole life because his selfish mother did drugs while she was pregnant with him.  This is my sister-in-law whom I have grown to love and hate at the same time.  It is not fair that an innocent child has to endure pain and suffering due to the mistakes of another.

How can I accept the fact that our nephew is suffering along with many others in this world.  So far the most we have been able to do is go see him in the hospital and try to brighten his day.  What else can I do?  Sometimes I want to curse out his mother, but that wouldn't ease his pain; although it would make me feel better!  I guess all we can do is be there for him, but that is very hard because it eats away at my soul every time I see him or his family.  The fact that there are thousands of other kids out there worse off than him pains me.

Why is it that so many people can pray to a god that is all powerful and loving, but cannot see the world being deprived of the power and love they pray for?

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